Two years old ~

Two years ago, a word entered into our life

that one can never be prepared for:

Cancer.

We were then introduced to more (equally scary) words:

Chronic Myeloid Leukemia.

My husband was diagnosed after 

discovering his white blood cell levels were way too high

for his 'routine' appendicitis.

What we know now is how blessed we were for

the appendicitis, and the doctors we were

surrounded by then and now.

The Lord has his plans, and they seem to be

different enough from ours that we are

constantly surprised by how He uses the broken for His glory.

These past two years have been an adventure for our family.

Nothing has come close to the low one feels

after hearing their dear one has been hit with the cancer stick,

but since we have relied on the Lord through this

process, we have been able to see His hand

at work at all times.

We know that over these last two years, He has been grooming us.

We have really solidified our little family unit,

we have learned to lean on Him in ALL,

and we have found that our frequency to His calling(s)

resonates clearly for us when we are prayerful.

We have been able to give up on our small dreams

in exchange for His big plans.

We have been able to take news of friends and family

in difficult situations in a very peaceful and prayerful way.

We are able to see how He uses the 

ugly, sin, disease, and brokenness

for HIS glory and how we get to play a role in that.

It is a privilege to be called a child of God,

the Heavenly Father whom cares about the details in our lives.

We can now praise the Lord for this cancer diagnosis.

Thank you for the medicine that is working so well,

we pray that it continues to work as well.

Thank you for the doctors that we are able to interact with,

blessed with such brains and bedside manner only

an Intelligent Creator could create.

Thank you for the perspective that we are able to

have and rest in the comfort of His plan and control of our lives.

Thank you, God for my husband.

I cherish his passion for providing for our family

in a very difficult business with high pressure and high expectations.

I adore his deep love for our family and big arms to wrap around us.

I honor his commitment to being a man of God

with integrity, honor and chivalry that is not often praised in this society.

I love him so much, Lord.

Those words seem so shallow compared to the depth of the reality.

I thank you for introducing him to me when I was 14.

I thank you that our relationship was built on a solid foundation

of friendship and growth.

I pray that we continue grow very old together blessed

with watching our grand babies have babies

leaving a legacy of Your love behind

for generations to come.

Amen.